Monday, November 28, 2011

Blog Shmog

It's possible that you've noticed that I'm not blogging as often as I used to, and I'm feeling guilty about it.  While I love writing and I'm beyond honored that anyone wants to read what I write, I'm having difficulty finding the time to do my writing.  And yes, somehow I find the time to play Words with Friends every day, but my blog has not been taking priority.

Nick's Mom Virginia, who was just here with Rusty on a perfectly wonderful Thanksgiving visit, may have put it best.  She suggested that maybe I don't "need" to blog as much anymore.  I definitely used blogging as a form of therapy, an outlet of sorts, and now that I'm out of the immediate woods cancer-wise, I'm feeling healthier, body and soul.  Looks like I'm allowing myself to ease up on my blogging therapy, I think that's a good thing.  

All that said, I am committed to this blog, and I will see it through. The exciting part is that seeing it through might mean that I can be done at the end of the year.  I should be able to finish my reconstruction, the tattoos, before year end.  That really is my final step in my cancer journey.  Of course I am still fearful of recurrence and will always have lingering terror over dying young and leaving my family motherless and lost, but life now is generally tranquil. Putting aside this blog is another step toward normalcy.

But I'm not done yet.  I know I left things hanging with my Fembot boobs, my weekend home to visit my Mom, and Virginia and Rusty's Thanksgiving visit.  Here's the very brief overview, and I apologize for not doing any of these subjects justice.  First, I made it through airport security with limited embarrassment, weird boobs and all. Upon returning home from Wisconsin, my plastic surgeon allowed me to ditch the Madonna boobs, thank God!  I even went shopping for pretty new bras.  I'm a 36 C!  Nipple wise, things are still a bit swollen, but I'm optimistic things will be in good shape a few weeks from now.  

My quick trip home to visit my Mom was truly fantastic.  I was able to see her perfectly appointed new home and feel a sense of relief that she is settling into her new life, sadly without my Dad.  My sisters Claudia and Diane were home too, which gave us an opportunity to be silly and do lots of giggling including our gut busting experiences with oddball airport employee Joseph W. in Milwaukee.  We even fit in a visit to the incredible Calatrava designed Milwaukee Art Museum.  Thank you Claudia, for this gift of this special trip home.

And our Thanksgiving weekend with Virginia and Rusty was fun and funny.  We share a peculiar sense of humor with these two, so weird and comical goings on are the norm.  An example?  A tiny two-inch baby doll joined us for Thanksgiving dinner.  You really don't need to hear more about this, truly.  The kids love their grandparents to pieces so the six of us really gel whether we are bobbing in the hot tub, out to dinner at Arribas or hiking the mountains around Boyce Thompson Arboretum.  We miss you G.G. and Rusty!

So we are caught up, right?  I will continue to blog on a weekly basis through the month of December, but I think it will be pretty brief as I am a Christmas machine and cannot avert much attention away from the ribbons and bows which I adore.  And after that?  We'll see where this goes.  It may be time for me to finally get to work on that Kick it Kiki book.  Not a bad idea for a New Year's resolution.

with love,


  1. Hello Kristin, yes I think Virginia is right:)...this was your way of dealing and now life is beginning to look normal and normal is where you want to live. So just send us back to your original site when you are ready and yes that book about the last year and half is a great new years resolution:)...enjoy the bows and ribbons of the season. You have a new normal and that is a blessing from our God in heaven, this is going to be a wonderful Christmas for all of and hugs, Deborah McLean

  2. Virginia (Nick's Mom)November 29, 2011 at 1:32 PM

    Wow, a big decision. And a courageous one, too. It takes a lot to be able to move on, to your new 'normal' and to your new ventures. The blog has given us all -- family, friends and the greater world of breast cancer sisterhood -- such brave and unvarnished insight into your journey and healing. We've laughed and cried with you. We've prayed hard. I'm so proud of you and grateful for you.  And can't wait to see what comes next. Congratulations!

  3. K - so glad that my sept 19 has come! I am at home and resting and reading your blog expirence was such a help to having me understand some of what to expect after reconstruction. I am so happy to have the rock expanders off my chest and....I realy would like to meet you (At the Duce for pie?) soon. I am waffling about getting the fem bot process, and may just go straight to tattooes? Cindy Deponti says the DUCE is great and depending on my recovery schedule, and your holiday madness we could maybe get together and compare B4 year end. Either way....thank you so much for being a big part of me getting through this journey!- Alisa 8 month survivor!

  4. Love you Kristin! Think of you so often and have appreciated your blog and your ability and willingness to really 'let us all in'. I have enjoyed watching your recovery process and viewing your happy family photos. Lots of love and wishes for a joyous, peace-filled and healthy 2012. Megan from Kansas