Monday, April 18, 2011

BP & Me

The magical day is approaching!  Yes, we are now just two days away from being a full year out from when I first heard those dreaded words "You have cancer".  I know I should be brimming with thoughtful insights about how my life has been changed, but right now, I'm just not feeling the need to pontificate over all that. Things are good, actually great, and I'm thrilled.


I've stayed away from the term "survivor" because it always seemed a bit corny.  I'm having a hard time avoiding it now because technically, you become a survivor the day after your initial diagnosis. So, I'm just days from being a one year breast cancer survivor.  Oh, that sounds so weird to be talking about myself in these terms. I do know that every year I hit as a survivor means I'm less likely to experience a recurrence.  As corny as it may be, I'm happy to start racking up those survivor years if it means I'm lessening my chances of having cancer again.


Tonight on the NBC Nightly News, Brian Williams was doing story after story reliving the BP oil spill one year ago.  That event hit at the same time as my diagnosis, so the details of it are pretty foggy to me.  I remember one night, about a year ago, I was recovering from my bilateral mastectomies and caught a bit of the news.  I remember asking Nick, "What's this BP story?  When did all this happen?"  I was so lost in my internal world, that I had no idea what was happening outside my own bubble.  


I actually feel like I lost a good 6 months of my life during treatment. Life went on around me, but I saw little of it.  I'm more than happy to give up that time if it means I get another 20, 30  or 40 more years on this earth with my family.  That's a no brainer.  


So, I'm sure I'll have more to say about this milestone, but for now, I think I'll keep the fanfare to a minimum.  I'm more than happy not to be the center of attention, for once.


with love
k  

4 comments:

  1. Virginia Green BranscomApril 19, 2011 at 2:33 PM

    Congratulations, dear Kristin, on coming out on top! What a year it's been! Thank you for inspiring us all with your courage, humor, honesty, strength and faith. You're our champion! XOXO

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  2. Oh praise God it is hard to believe that it has been a year! I hear you with not wanting a big fanfare but that will change in time:) It is time to start printing your blog and working on that book:) You have a personality that they make movies out of so keep going with all the normal family fun that is yours in full measure from now on! When a person is going through a very personal and difficult time they are not aware of how the world is looking at them and seeing strength. We all saw your strength even while you were crawling through that tunnel of foul smelling stuff:) Congratulations on one year down and sixty more to go, Love and hugs, Deborah McLean

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  3. Congratulation to you Kristin to reach your 1 year mark as a survivor and to many more ahead! We have kept you in our thoughts and hearts thoughout this past year. Thank you for sharing your journey with all of us especially with your witty humor. Your strength, courage, and humor really provided clarity for me for putting life's 'piddly everyday stuff' in perspective. Its made me conscious not to take life's everyday moments and small blessings for granted. And I agree - a book is calling your name to have you write it! You will have an immediate fan club I am sure. Cheers to you and your beautiful family!
    Stephanie (aka Rebecca's friend 'Sugar')

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  4. You are one of my very special Hero's! I keep you in my prayers every day and know that you will be there for a very, very long time! Stay happy friend...life is good! xoxo - Nan

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