Sunday, January 30, 2011

Smarty Pants

"Look, Mommy's ribbon!"
I am beyond happy to report that this weekend was just as fabulous as advertised. Lots of time with the kids and just enough time without them, praise the good Lord for nanny Judy. Lots of time with our overly generous friends, truly the Howers were spoiled rotten this weekend, and even a little time for just Nick and me. This glorious afternoon in between the knots in my neck being expertly manipulated and raising a Pina Colada to cheers my fabulous hostess, Jen Shenfeld, at the Camelback Inn Spa, I received this photo on my phone from Nick.  The caption said "Fisher made this today and said 'Look, Mommy's ribbon!'"

Remember, Fisher's four, almost five, and I kind of thought we pulled this whole cancer thing past him. Seriously, we got away with "Mommy has some germs in her boobies and needs to have an operation to remove them."  Then when my hair fell out and I wasn't able to get out of bed for days at a time, it was all just from "some strong medicine that is helping Mommy get better from her operation."

I should have given that bugger a little more credit.  He did notice all the pink ribbons on the "Kick it Kiki" shirts and just about everything else that entered our house for about six months.  It will be very interesting to see what he has to say about this time in our lives when he is ten, fifteen and then twenty.  What does he remember, if anything?  Did he have any clue what was really happening to his mommy?  I sure hope not.  It has been extremely important to Nick and me that we not scare the kids, they are so little for crumb sake. Yes, at some point I want them to know what occurred here (in broad strokes), but not for a very long time.  I'm not even sure when that will be.  But I did find out today that Fisher definitely has more of a clue than I originally thought.  That gets me worrying.

with love,

1 comment:

  1. Stinks that after all you have been through you still have to worry...try to stay positive and keep the worries under wraps....stress is no good for you my dear!!!