Monday, November 1, 2010


Is it possible to feel joyous, honored, thankful, sad, scared and loved all at the same moment? Because that's how I feel right now.  My Mom was the last one to leave our house tonight after the most memorable birthday celebration of my life.  My heart is still aching for her.  My sister Claudia also left today, and my brother Mike and his most wonderful girlfriend Genny left yesterday.  I am utterly exhausted, (oh, add that to the list) emotionally and physically, but oh so incredibly happy.  I truly cherish every moment we all had together over the past five days.  We didn't talk much about cancer, barely at all.  We laughed and ate and laughed and ate some more.  We had lots of crazy fun time with the kiddos, and time for just the grown ups too.  Of course we didn't take enough photos, but Nick and his trusty iPhone captured many of the key moments.  I'll do my best to get them posted over the next day or so, along with stories from the highlights.  In the meantime, I need to catch up on all the regular life things I've gleefully ignored over the past several days while my family was here around me. 

Now it's time to reflect on and embrace all these vivid emotions.  My world is in technicolor and I'm still not quite used to it.  As the fog of my treatments clears, and the memories of all the ugly challenges I overcame to get to this moment fade a bit, my new life is coming into view.  I'm immensely touched that my family was here to welcome me back to the surface.  I love you all so very much.



  1. virginia (Nick's Mom)November 2, 2010 at 2:02 PM

    So glad your wonderful family was wrapped around you for your big birthday and celebration weekend. Fabulous for sure! XOXOX

  2. :( Ahhh Im sorry I missed your birthday. HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY. Im so happy for you that its OVER!!! What great timing! I hear the joy in your writing. :)