I do have to admit that my physical limitations of not being able to lift, carry or move my upper body and arms very easily have put me in tears lately. It is so hard to go from being completely able to depending on others for so many basic needs, especially when it comes to caring for the kids. While our munchkins love the attention of their aunties, as their mama, I still want to be their everything. I'm making a commitment to start practicing more patience with myself. This is a marathon and not a sprint, I need to pace myself. I also understand that my current physical limitations are due more to the surgery than the chemo, and the surgery healing is underway. I'll just be a lot happier once can lift my little girl out of her crib in the morning, put her on my hip and start my day. I think I've got 2-3 more weeks before that can happen, sigh.
As a family, we are looking forward to a quiet and fun weekend with my sisters here, as my chemo symptoms lessen each day. I'm looking forward to the next week of feeling more like myself and continuing to heal. Next chemo is Monday the 24th, so I've got lots of time to play before then. Brace yourself, two of my wildest and craziest college roommates are my chemo buddies for the next round- things will definitely get interesting.