Thursday, May 27, 2010

Ready or Not...


Ok, I think this is what you've been waiting for...YIKES!! But, at least I have company. Check out those high and tight cuts on the boys too. Tonight while Jenny-Jane and I were reading stories before bed, Nick and Fisher snuck away to create their own versions of my "do" with the dog shears in Fisher's bathroom. No, I'm not kidding. Nick said Fisher kept saying "do me, do me" as Nick was shaving his own head. So he did. The results are pretty darn good, better than the dogs looked after their Mother's Day shave. I'm beyond touched.

So how do I feel about my stubbly head? I'm surprisingly ok. Really. A lot has to do with the support I had from my team at the salon today. The bestest friend a girl could have, Jen Shenfeld, escaped from work to drive me to Scottsdale where we met Krista at Laurie's Salon for the big event. While I was definitely scared, I knew it was time. The part in my hair was about 1/2 inch thick from my hair falling out, gross. Jen held my hand the entire time, Krista was head cheerleader and provided constant humor, and Laurie just sheared away like she does this every day. Only a couple tears, but lots and lots of laughs.

Coming home to show the kids was one of my bigger fears. Fisher's first word was "cool" and Jenny-Jane looked puzzled then petted my head with love. They are fine, and so is Nick who says I look beautiful.

I've still got spotty stubble all over my head that will fall out in the next few days to make my head shiny bald. We'll see how I feel about that. I'm most comfortable in caps so far, as I felt pretty confident leaving the salon in my page-boy style cap and sunglasses. I have an appointment tomorrow morning at the Mac Cosmetics counter to learn how to best accentuate my features. Lord knows I can't hide behind my hair. This is crazy!

I'm going to end this post with a perfect sentiment passed along from Krista. Her mother gave it to her when she was battling her cancer, and it could not be more apropos for me today. "Just when the caterpillar thought the world was over, it became a butterfly".

Amen.
love
k


19 comments:

  1. You are adorable, all of you! This is such a great picture! Kristin, you can have a different disguise every day.

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  2. If it is possible - I think you are more beautiful without hair! Wish I could come with you to MAC!
    XOXOXOOOOO

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  3. Kristin you ARE beautiful and your smile is amazing...just keep doing the next thing and the next thing and before you know it this Chemo season of life will be behind you:) Maybe your will get curly red hair:) !!! Love the 'dog shears' story with Nick and Fisher and I can just see Jenny-Jane patting your fuzzy head! Keep blogging and resting and shopping and having fun with 'head gear' :)...you definitely have a 'pink ribbon' book in the making...have a peaceful day, saying big prayers, Deborah (Virginia's friend...one wearing the pink collar with red hair:)

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  4. Susan Padilla-ReinaMay 28, 2010 at 8:06 AM

    Kristin,
    Your hair did not define your beauty. Just look at that picture and the world would know how truly beautiful you are. The grace and strength you have shown throughout this process is amazing. You are such an inspiration. The boys and I pray for you daily and wish we could fast forward this process so we could hang out again.

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  5. Tammy Quinn-UnreinMay 28, 2010 at 9:12 AM

    That smile defines your beauty........ F hair! F cancer! :) :)
    We think you look BEAMINGLY radiant!!

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  6. it is a shock to NO ONE that you make BALD truly BEAUTIFUL!!! in fact, I think i prefer this look to senior year in college :) think hawaiian camp shirt, tied in a front knot and the 1992 version of Dorothy Hammill...not so awesome! :) love you...bec

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  7. virginia (Nick's Mom)May 28, 2010 at 12:11 PM

    Too precious! You just might inspire other Phoenix families to get COOL buzzes this summer! You look gorgeous, and your boys are the sweetest and dearest ever. XOXO

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  8. MISS KRISTIN:

    You are amazing & you look great!

    If you were sporting this DO during the Sinead O'Connor days she would certainly *NOT COMPARE TO YOU*!!

    So great the whole family got behind you with the sheers!

    You're always in our thoughts and in our prayers.

    This will soon be behind you & just a memory.

    :)) MUCH LOVE, tom & lisa

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  9. Ya, how is it possible that you're even more beautiful without hair? Love it. You're such a brave woman - your kids will learn more from you and your incredible response to this trial than they've ever learned from you before. You're my hero. Honestly. xo

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  10. You look awesome! You are as beautiful as can be . . . not just saying! You really are! Love and miss you, Mimi

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  11. this is from chris: love the new doo's for the whole family! Can't wait to share the weekend with all of you and who knows after the Vig I may join the club!

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  12. Breathtaking! I missed a whole day in reading Kickitkiki and woke late this morning but couldn't wait to catch up. I poured my first cup of coffee and while my home was still quiet (everyone, including our Golden Retriever Jake, are still snoozing), I tiptoed into my office to catch up. I feel that it is inappropriate to call early on a Saturday morning but that's what I want to do! I am showing my self-control by not calling so please forgive the long comment! I just want you to know that you are breathtaking! You are absolutely beautiful my friend...I keep scrolling up to see your beautiful face and your men and I just can't get over how amazing you look! I just knew it! You and Demi Moore both rock no hair! We all shouldn't be surprised at all. Now, for the boys...I have to confess that I was moved to tears by Nick's demonstration of pure love. I laughed through my tears as I read your posting...I can totally picture little Jenny-Jane touching you, and I can hear Fisher's little voice saying you look cool. What intimate, loving memories you will always have of this tough journey...you are forever changed for the better my dear, sweet friend and due to the fact you bravely share every experience, we all are. I am praying. I love you and your family so much and I can't wait to see you soon. BIG WARM HUGS!

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  13. you look beautiful ...and follow in the line of the other beautiful ladies that look amazing without locks: demi and natalie portman. go kiki!! xo ashley

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  14. OMG. I've held it together reading your blog until today. Kristen, I don't know how to say this, but you look better without hair. You don't need no MAC make up to accentuate anything, my dear. Never the less, enjoy the pampering because MAC does make some great lipsticks. Your heart comes shining through that beautiful face. AMAZING! I think of you everyday and miss your big smile. Kick the shit our this thing, mama butterfly! We are all rooting for you! Much love, Radha

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  15. Kristin, Keli Openshaw is down here in Tucson with me for the weekend and we both think you look fabulous (without hair). We're thinking about you and praying you keep up the strong fight and keep being a beautiful warrior. By the way, IF you have time this week at all, can you tell me what it felt like right before you lost your hair? I'm sure mine won't last long beyond the 3rd chemo. feels very odd. Love and blessings, Christie Campos, Tucson.

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  16. I agree with your husband. you look beautiful. shows off your gorgeous face. gotta admit I can't wait to see the wig though...hoping you chose the long brunette one.....

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  17. Wow Kristin as always you look truly amazing!! You are in our thoughts and prayers.

    The Morris Family

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  18. Kristin you look gorgeous. Less hair means we can see your huge smile and eyes more! This is a beautiful photo. Wishing you much rest and feeling good as you keep going forward with treatments. Thinking of you lots.

    cousin Julie D.

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  19. Kristin...your beauty was never your hair. It is your amazing personality, big bright smile, and the love you always carry around with you wherever you go! You will always be beautiful with or without hair!!

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