It's me, Kristin, and I'm kinda in a drug induced awake coma, so excuse my random thought process. Today was pretty dreamy. Lots of drugs, naps and snacks. Nick has been a super star with making sure I stay on top of my meds, and cleaning out the nasty blood drains coming from each side of my chest. I could use a few more days like this and I may be good as new! I'm happy to say that my pain is not too bad, just getting in and out of bed is a challenge. The kids are surprisingly understanding too. Jenny-Jane strattles my waist as I sit in bed and feeds me ice cream, and Fisher carefully sits next to me to read stories and and play with toys. My support systems is wild. Between Nick, his mom Virginia, my sister Diane and nanny Judy, they pretty much have our home life humming. There is not an hour that goes by that I dont have flowers, gifts, cards, food etc. delivered to our door. It's humbling and inspiring all in one.
I never really wrote about my hosptial experience, but it was a 30 hour roller coaster. I had an entourage in pre-op with Nick, Virginia, Diane and my friend Krista who is just 18 months past her breast cancer diagnosis. I think we laughed 90% of the time and the hosptial staff thought we were a little nuts. I don't remember much of surgery, execpt feeling nautious afterward and yelling at Diane to quiet down (sorry!). I had bumbling night nurses moving me from post-op to my room, and was awake most of the night in a weird dream state, but all in all, tolerable. All my many doctors visited me in the morning and all said that things were great so far. This weekend I expect to spend resting and then starting the doctor treadmill again next week. I'm pretty nervous about my lab results from my tumor removals, and finding out my cancer "staging". I guess the biggest fear is learning that the cancer has possibly spread to other parts of my body- but I'm being optimistic that it hasn't. I really do feel pretty good except for the impossibly tight bandage around my torso. I expect to hear my chemo regimin this week which kinda freaks me out, but I totally understand that it is a necessary evil. I can honestly say that getting to this finish line won't be easy, but I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. My support system of loved ones is off the charts, thank you to each and every one of you. I feel all your love and positivity coming my way, truly. I'm inspired, encouraged and feel wrapped in your support. Thank you from the bottom of my heart.