Sunday, April 25, 2010

Here we go!

The reason I've gathered you all here today...ok, you know why you are here. And I really appreciate that you want to know what's happening with this crazy blip on our life map. As you know, I've got breast cancer. Wow. It's even hard to say after I've been living with my diagnosis since Tuesday, April 20th, just 6 days ago. The emotions are off the charts, again, waaayyyy off the charts. I'm sure I'll be filling you in that roller coaster on this blog throughout my journey. At times, I may writing from a pain medication haze, but honestly, won't those be the most entertaining? I think so.

Nick and I are committed to updating this blog very regularly to keep you informed of my progress. Sometimes you'll hear from me, sometimes from him. I'm excited about getting an "ipad" which is some flat wireless computer thing I can surf the web, watch movies, watch porn (just kidding, mom!!) and update my blog from during my recovery. Right now, I'm mentally and physically getting ready for my double mastectomy (removing both breasts) on this Wednesday April 28th. It sounds harsh, I know, but I'm very much at peace with it, right now. As they wheel me into the operating room, I may be a flailing mess, but I'm not so sure. Get this cancer shit out of me- fast, is how I'm looking at it now.

There is so much to say, and I want to explain how I got to this point in the whole finding it and surgery next week ambush. But I'll stop for now and say that I will beat this thing. 'nuff said. Oh, one more thing. You can write comments to me on the blog and I would love to hear from you often. And please, not too mushy. You know I'm not the mushy type :)


31 comments:

  1. YOU GO, GIRL!!!! Keep your eye on the prize and I'll be riding beside you, in front of you (pulling you) and behind you (pushing you)...count on it! With many prayers and much love, Krista xoxo

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  2. HECK YA, we're gonna kick this thing's A$$ like we're on 'roids and someone just made us mad! Seriously - if anyone can kick it, you can Kristen! And you will. Love love, Monica

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  3. Sorry I spelled your name wrong. I'm a dope and type too fast. I'm so used to the NORMAL way. xo KristIn.

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  4. We're here for you guys, whatever you need, anytime, in body, and in spirit.

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  5. You can definitely do this thing, Kristin. This blog is a terrific idea. Thank you! LOVE, wen

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  6. I am sending every bit of good karma your way! Bear down girl and in a few years we will look back, over a bottle of wine, and say...pfff, cancer smancer. Lots of LOVE to you, Nick, Fisher and Jenny-Jane. Joanne wants to bring some meals over so let me know when you get the meals on wheels together. She makes a mean casserole.

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  7. Kristin,
    You're so strong (and sassy!), you'll definitely kick it, kiki! Can't wait to see you...XOXO V.

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  8. Hi honey!

    Ok, you specifically requested nothing mushy. WTH? You know me??!?!! What is a girl to do?! I guess I will just post dirty jokes here then! j/k! :) Sending you warm hugs! I am your prayer warrior sister and am in thoughtful prayer everyday. xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxox stac

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  9. You go girl...Wednesday will take care of that "smegma" and then it's upwards for you. Know that we are with you as you go through the healing process. We love you all!!

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  10. Kristin-i have faith in you and have been praying for you and Nick since before the news. You have so much attitude and strength. You will more than beat this-you will make it into something that enriches your life and those around you..you are just that kinda girl. Julia

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  11. You know I'm ready to do some big-time "kicking" it with you... and I can't wait to play with that iPad thing! The big c won't know what to do with so many bossy (oh, I mean assertive) moms cheering you on. XO - A

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  12. Kristin,
    you are in my prayers and thoughts. i know with your crazy upbeat attitude you will laugh this off and it wont have a chance. i wish you a quick recovery and back with you adorable family as soon as possible! anything i can do please let me know.
    wendy

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  13. Kristin,

    You can do this. Our prayers are with you every step of the way!! Every minute we will send wellness and happiness to you.

    Lots of love,
    Julie + Frank + Connor + Peter + Michaela Jane

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  14. It's been a long time, I just heard from a long time friend from high school ( Julie Dunlop ) I remember you as being the little cousin that had all the energy, and I am sure that not much has changed. Stay strong and we will be keeping you in our thought and prayers. --Al & Karen Knotek

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  15. Count us in for Meals on Wheels, doggie duty or what ever you need!! Xoxo sweet girl - Nan

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  16. "KICK IT KIKI! KICK IT KIKI! KICK IT KIKI!"...can you hear us all chanting it?

    We are sending positive energy your way.

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  17. Dear Kristin, sending you high energy prayers from the Poconos in Pennsylvania...your a fighter and my sons and daugthers are praying for you BIG TIME...you can KICK IT!!!! what a fabulous motto:) The prayers of good people who care about you and your family are a joy to send your way:)...love your blog...stay in the moment and God will be there with you, hugs, healing and prayers, from Deborah McLean and all her prayer warriors.

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  18. You will kick it Kristin! I would love to give you a call(Tammy Unrein sent me your info). I just went through breast cancer last year. I was hesitant to call my friend's survivors, but once I did I found sooooo much comfort in talking with someone who had already experienced the same thing. I'm sending you strength and nights filled with sleep. You will get through this! Please call me anytime. I'm happy to talk and listen and cry. Holly Rose 602-354-2930 cell 602-535-9458 or you can email me your info and I'd be happy to call you - hollyrose@checkforalump.com

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  19. Bob and I are so sorry to hear this news! Please let us know any way we can help and definitely count us in for home cooked meal delivery! BTW Bob and I are fantastic cooks, so you just might get hooked... Stay strong and we are all here for you!! Love and hugs, Cami and Bob Olshan

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  20. You are in our thoughts and prayers. We are confident that this will soon be a battle won. Hang in there!
    -- Lane and Revel Force

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  21. Kristin...Jeff and I are thinking of you daily and will try to help entertain you daily (via blog of course). Since I see you're a big fan of porn (sorry mom) we have some great titles we can send to you out of our private collection. The new iPad will be perfect for viewing!! haha
    In all seriousness...we love you and will truly do whatever we can to help you KICK THIS! If anyone can do it, you can Kristin. Talk with you tomorrow!! L&J Geyser

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  22. You're gonna kick this thing's ass, Kristin. I know it!
    Cancer can go fuck itself. Yeah, I said it. So what. Screw you, Cancer.

    Every good thought coming your way, girl. From all of us.

    Raggs

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  23. Hi Kritter. You are going to beat this shit with flying colors. I'm sure Joelle is there with you now to help carry you through the rough patches. She has taken care of us for the past three years and now it's your turn. Big Huggs and Kisses from all of us. I wish we were there to deliver them in person along with a yummy meal. Love you Rich, Janice, Maddie, and Connor.

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  24. Hi Kristin,

    I just got off the phone with Peg Reinhart. . Please know that I am sending you all my love, and will be constantly praying for you. I wish I could snap my fingers and appear in AZ to be at your side. You are an incredibly strong woman and you WILL get through this!

    Love, prayers, and strength to you, sweetie!
    xo,
    Gina Harris

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  25. Sending you strength, energy, love and hope from Massachusetts. We will be praying for everything to go smoothly. I know first hand that cancer just sucks, but on the other side of it all you find love and strength from so many friends and family. You begin to realize how wonderful your circle of friends and family really are. It is a little blessing in a big mess.
    Love Jessica, Derrick, Jackson and Cooper

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  26. Kristin - our thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. We know that you will Bear Down and beat the hell out of this thing. With all of our faith, hope, and love to you.

    Collin and Lorry Bottrill

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  27. Kristin -

    Tomorrow will be over soon and there will be many brighter tomorrows!

    Thoughts, prayers and love!

    Karen Daneman

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  28. Kristin-

    I have been thinking of you all day. . . I'm saying lots of prayers for tomorrow and sending you lots of love from Milwaukee.

    xo,
    Gina

    PS- You have the most beautiful family; I love your pictures that you posted!!!

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  29. Hi K! I finally got my f***ing picture uploaded! (I know really important in the scheme of things right now). Ok one non-mushy thing to tell you about tomorrow: you will not be a "flailing mess as they wheel you off tomorrow"!!! Get ready for THE BEST sleep you have had in 4 years and 2 months, (sorry Fisher and Jenny Jane, but true)!!! Got to love the dream state of general anesthesia!
    OK, one kind of mushy thing....you are in my every thought. Beat it babe!

    Big Love - Courtney

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  30. Kristin, of course it goes without saying that we will be sending all the positive energy we can corral and sending it your way tonight and tomorrow, I thought that Iwould share with you something that happened today that might "tickle your funny bone". On our "Great Adventure" naturally, Lawrence has been "the pilot" relegating me to "the cop-pilot/navigator , but, perhaps more importantly, the person in charge of entertainment. When I checked your new blog today I discovered your other blog! So fortunately for me, you provided me with some fresh meat ! Since I enjoyed your "fish stories" so much I also knew that "himself" would too. I read them as we traveled ever closer from Virginia to home in RI in our 32' home on wheels. Thank you so many times for that!!!
    We love you and will be thinking of you tomorrow.
    Cyndy

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  31. No mushy stuff. Got it.
    I believe in the power of energy and I'm blogging to your succesful recovery in order to enhance the flow of positive energy you have in your court.

    And although I do not know you or your beautiful family- Your blog is very helpful. I have prayed for you at the request of Amy Hill.

    I pray for your continued strength and determination for you to continue the energy to fight this cancer. Wishing you and your family many blessings.
    I trust your spirits will remain positive given your corage so far.

    Joanne Carras

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